Maturity, Lesson 1

people are weird. i know thats a strange realization to come to after all these years, but i just recently found out that people are alot weirder then i though they were. actually, i think weird is the wrong word. people are selfish. me included. everyone is only looking for what will benefit them. how they can manipulate every single situation so that they get something out of it, whether they need it or just simply want it. people are manipulative and controlling and selfish. i wonder what we can do about it. probably nothing really. but we can focus on fixing it in ourselves i guess. try not to take advantage of other people. and when it comes down to it, don't let yourself be taken advantage of either. its a hard lesson to learn, one that most people learn the difficult way. its not so pleasing to wake up one morning and realize that you have been totally and completely manipulated without your knowledge. you find yourself doing things that you wouldnt normally do, but because of the way someone treats you, you find yourself doing them anyway. the good side is that you can realize it and do something about it. the scary part of it is, if its just in a friend you can distance yourself from them and of they hate you they hate you. but sometimes it takes you a while to figure it out, say six months or so. all of a sudden im a reeeeeealllllllyyyyyyyy big fan of going out for alot longer then a month, two months, even three. i think it takes longer then that to REALLY be able to get to know someone. once you get past the four to six month mark, i think thats when everything really starts to come out. all of a sudden im that person who wants to go out for a good six months before getting engaged, and i wasnt like that for a long time. i was of the belief that you could know someone is right for you long before that. well now, i think you have to spend more time with them over a longer period of time to be absolutely sure. its freaky. because all those people who date for two months and are engaged for two months and get married, what if they wake up two or three months into their marriage and realize they have been totally manipulated?! well thats pretty bad i would think. and all of a sudden marriage is more serious, more difficult, and alot more work then i thought. sure i knew it wasnt all pretty roses and romance, i knew its way more then that, but its WAY more then that. its just kinda came along and bopped me on the head. what do you think of that? oh, and by the way i found my wedding dress....