randomizer is the name of the game

mama said there would be days like these. you know those days when you have so much to do but no matter what you cant get yourself to actually concentrate and do it because you have too much on your mind? well thats today. and yesterday. and the day before. and its bad timing, ya know? i have finals now. i still have 20 pages to type and two finals to study for. all by thursday. except for one final. thats today. i think ill just plan on failing now. see that way i wont be disappointed if i do fail, and ill be happily surprised if i do well. i like my way of living.

well i officially finished one of my papers and i have two pages done of the other one. 6 1/2 pages down only 13 1/2 pages left. i feel so much more comforted now. and the fact that i have a final in two hours and i havent really studied at all and i really have no clue whats going to be on the test. ech. that doesnt bother me at all. im totally cool. ill just wing it. cause im the perfect wing it woman, dont you know?

well the panic over me reading that email has passed and i have successfully moved onto, "i think ill drown myself today". of course my bathtub here isnt very big, it can barely hold a child (dont bring it up around my roommate, its a touchy subject) so ill have to throw myself off the rough instead. that actually kind of happened at my first year at TI. yeah, i was climbing out the window to get to the roof to see what was going on across the street and i kind of fell out the window. got a huge gash on my leg and everything. my friend was watching me and she said it really looked like i had thrown myself out the window and she felt like she should call a suicide watch. it was rather amusing. i think that was the same night my phone fell off the roof too. it was hard night all around for sure :).

well not that we have taken a walk down memory lane together i think i better get back to work. my brain is everywhere except where it is supposed to be. studying. ha! hasta manana chicas.