everyone is a little bi-polar at heart

well it was just one of those weeks. first everything is going well. then everything is going terribly. then a couple hours later its all good again. now, see, i dont know about you but i dont think the human body was programmed to have such drastic mood swings like that. the brain goes *screeeeeeech* and yells, "hey! yo! gimme a minute to catch up there buddy!" as it huffs and puffs, one step behind all the time. thats what i feel like at the moment.

the week started out pretty much ok. a little moody, a little pms-y, a little contemplative (which is never a good combination by the way, i always end up doing something really strange when im in those moods). monday night. d-day. i was ok. still a little moody. at BB's but it was ok. someone came in that i didnt want to deal with but it all worked out ok. talked to dev and got in a better mood. talked to mo, got in a better mood because he always makes me laugh. he said the word "kissables" which for some reason sent me over the edge. i was a little hysterical. then something happened to my computer. i pushed a button, my computer shut down and when it turned back on my desktop was blank, and itunes....was empty. well after i screamed, cried, punched the wall (literally, my hand is a little sore) i managed to find my music buried somewhere inside my computer but it was still messed up. i went to sleep with so much frustrated energy, that i couldnt even close my eyes. i turned on metallica on my ipod as loud as it would go. within ten minutes i was asleep. i was MAD.

tuesday jenny came an got me from BB's where i was hanging out while i was skipping class. she took me to the apple store and we fixed my computer. all good. coffee and fixed computer make for a much better night. so thats pretty much resolved, few kinks in the resetting of my computer but at least i know there is nothing wrong with it.

well the beast has reared its head yet again. i brought up the deal with my neighbor again. his sister said shes gonna talk to him to see what his side of the story is. at this point even if i dont get the answer i want ill be relieved because at least ill be able to move on and stop agonizing over what ifs. right now not knowing is much more painful then knowing i didnt get the answer i wanted. so we'll see how this one turns out. im still agonizing over whether or not she is really gonna talk to him.

remember how i mentioned i had a crazy week? yeah. the human body is not equipped to deal with so many emotions in such a short period of time. seriously. i feel like a wrung out wash cloth. if thats possible. well i must go. ive got a brain to catch up with.